In the beginning…I was so excited about starting on my first sweater. I had a pattern and online class that I was joining. I rushed out to the two (yes ONLY two) yarn stores in town but couldn’t find a cotton blend yarn in the quantity and weight that I wanted. I then searched for a long time online and finally found yarn that I thought work and even bought two colors. When the yarn arrived however, I was so disappointed. As often happens when buying things online, the colors weren’t at all as I expected. I sent one color back and convinced myself that I could live with the other color. After I knit a few inches, I stopped and ripped my knitting out. I just couldn’t live with the color.
Undaunted, I drove to the opposite side of the island to the two small yarn stores there. I was happy to find a slightly variegated cotton yarn that I liked. I cast on and completed almost the whole back section. My knitting was flying and I was projecting that I’d have my sweater done in a couple months!
When I got together with my knitting mentor however, she pointed out that my yarn was creating stripes that were going horizontally and that my pattern would not work well with the yarn I had. I have to admit that I had already realized that but was secretly hoping that she, in all of her amazing knitting wisdom would have a way to make everything work. I snapped a quick photo and started undoing all of my knitting and rolled the yarn back into balls. Someone once told me that skilled and experienced knitters are not even fazed by undoing rows and rows of knitting–just to get it right. I am not skilled and experienced and so I was very sad to undo all of that hard work…
I was out walking the other day and ran into my knitting mentor who conveniently lives close by. I was telling her of my sweater and yarn struggles and she politely listened. She was her usual encouraging self, but asked whether I really wanted to knit a sweater. Why was I making this all so difficult and why was I creating so many obstacles for myself? I thought about what she said on my extra long walk that day.
Someone once told me that your knitting reflects your life at the time and maybe that’s what’s happening here. Like searching for yarn, I am searching for new paths and directions to help my family and myself. There are paths that I have been convinced would work well, but halfway down the road I have had to turn around and start over again. It’s been a long and sometimes frustrating process–just like ripping out rows and rows of knitting.
But still…I am undaunted and resolved. I will knit my first sweater. I found yet another yarn–this time a cotton/linen blend and a new pattern.
It’s time to begin again…
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